Letting Go

Spring Street – Vanessa Carlton

Nah, nah-nah-nah, nah nah nah
Nah, nah-nah-nah, nah nah nah

I was heading down to Spring Street with a suitcase in my hand
Filled with love and life and grand illusion,
I knew you’d understand
I left you by the stairwell
And your eyes were wet with tears
Mother you knew you had to let me go,
Even after all these years

And we sing
Nah, nah-nah-nah, nah nah nah
She said
Nah-nah-nahnah nah nah nah
Walk on
Nah-nah nah, nah, nah nah nah
You’re alright
Nah-nah, nah, nah nah nah nah

And I found myself a new life
I’ve been living with some friends
We hold on to dreams and live like kings,
Like the days will never end
I left him by the statue and his eyes were filled with tears
Lover you knew you had to let me go
Even after all these years
And we sing

Nah-nahnah-nah nah nah nah
He said
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
Walk on
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
You’re alright
Nah-nah, nah, nah nah nah nah

Everything changes friends become strangers
What we hold so dear slips away
The past keeps on fading,
But I’ll never forget you
It’s hard to see that you’re a part of me
Even when we have to say

Nah-nah, nah, nah,nah nah nah
Walk on
Nah-nah, nah, nah nah nah nah nah
We sing
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
Well alright
Nah-nah, nah, nah nah nah nah

And I moved out of the city
To start a family of my own
When I look into my daughter’s eyes,
I don’t feel so alone
And as I walk her down to Spring Street
She holds on to my hand
Mother you knew my eyes would be wet with tears and now I understand

Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
And I said
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
Walk on
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
Thank you
Nah-nah, nah, nah, nah nah nah
Walk on,
You’re alright
Can’t hold on
Nah-nah,nah, nah, nah nah nah

Dear ___ ,

I’m letting go. I already did, to us that is, but this is letting go of a different kind.

I can’t believe you’re not free yet. I thought you were, hence my reaching out…and the offence I took when you did not, and will not, take my hand once again…as a friendship that could bloom…but now, now I’ll allow the wilt.
And you can’t see the way my arms shake as I try to hold that weight…you’ll never know the extent of exhaustion I feel at just thinking of that concept…and you never ever will. Even when I/did throw it in your face (I’m sorry).

I’m a drug to you. I hate that I am the poison that runs through your veins.

You have to understand that I didn’t know. I didn’t. know. You left and I envisioned you as happy, in a new life, and that was it. That’s how it is when someone willingly leaves you.

Now you will literally live a separate life and I will fade into the background, so far back until I can’t see you any more, and you can’t see me. And it’ll be better, and it’ll make you happy. And for awhile I’m sure I’ll watch…because I’m an addict to the past too. But eventually, my vision will blur as tears well in my faded blue eyes, and you’ll be better for it. And I have to try to believe that in the end, I will be too.

I’ve already faded so much that I’m able to write this here because I know you’ll never read it.

I’ll always love you.

– Becc

I did the best I could…
And someday realising that will be enough for me.

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3 comments

  1. hey there! i’m loving your recent posts!
    I also blogged about “An Open Letter to the Man Who Opened My Eyes To the World”. How can someone give the whole world to you and in a snap they’re gone?

    here’s what my recent post is all about…
    https://talkaboutbeauty.wordpress.com/2014/06/26/an-open-letter-to-the-man-who-opened-my-eyes-to-the-world/

    would be so nice to hear from you! 🙂

    cheers! xx

    deanna ( http://www.talkaboutbeauty.wordpress.com )

    1. Hey, thanks for sharing. ❤

      That is a beautiful open letter. That person is/was lucky to have you in their life.

      Also, I must say, the layout and design of your blog is so awesome, I really like it!

      Love xo

      1. thank you so much for your wonderful response! I appreciate it!
        My design has always been simple and not sore to the eyes! I like yours too! keep me posted! cheers! P.S im now following you. 🙂

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