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Accept Your Feeling-Being

You are a feeling being.
You will never stop feeling.

Fear
Sadness
Anger
Pain
Worry
Concern

You will move into a place where these pains will fade, disintegrate upon their entrance into your open arms of acceptance.

Because you are. You are acceptance. All you have to do is be. Be present.

When you be, you are.

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Let it Go, Let it Go.

Shadows fall
On your skin
We fought the war
To stand tall
But now it’s sinkin’ in

Can you be the light you were created to be?
Can you be the one to set you free?
Can you be the one to make my heart see?

– Rebecca Elizabeth Anne

There’s an albatross around your neck,
All the things you’ve said,
And the things you’ve done,
Can you carry it with no regrets?
Can you stand the person you’ve become?
Oh, there’s a light
Oh, there’s a light

Your albatross, let it go, let it go,
Your albatross, shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can’t shake
The heavy weight of living

Stepping forward out into the day
Shrugging off the dust and memory
Though it’s soaring still above your head
It is out of sight and none shall see
Oh, there’s a light
Oh, there’s a light
Your albatross, let it go, let it go,
Your albatross, shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can’t shake
The heavy weight of living
When you just can’t seem to shake
The weight of living

It’s the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It’s the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It’s the sun in your eyes, in your eyes
It’s the sun in your eyes, in your eyes

Your albatross, let it go, let it go,
Your albatross shoot it down, shoot it down
When you just can’t shake
The heavy weight of living
When you just can’t seem to shake
The weight of living

The weight of living
The weight of living
The weight of living
The weight of living

Weight of Living Part I – Bastille

I will find a way to let this go
If I don’t now I won’t know
How to be more than this
Oh, I know I’m more than this

I’m a story told a thousand times
Lived a thousand lives
A thousand lies
I’ll burn it away
To become what I have always been
The truth of me

– Rebecca Elizabeth Anne

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My Book – The Mystery

I am writing The Table of Contents for my book and I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing, it’s amazing. i have no idea what i'm doing space dog

Last night I wrote the first chapter title and 2 paragraphs on the subject.
I had a vision of it. I can see it. I’m not ‘writing’ it. I’m channelling it. I’m voicing it. I’m giving it life. It is very strange.

I got the name of the book a little while ago. I felt confronted by the name, the idea. It is a big topic and I felt fear with thoughts like, ‘what if I do it wrong?!’ and ‘I’m not good enough for that!’ as in, not professional enough, not experienced enough, not respected enough. However, it is not about that. It’s SO not about me. It’s about information. It’s about freedom. It’s about sharing. It’s about helping in the name of unity.

I feel like I’ve been ’employed’ by the divine. IT SOUNDS SO WEIRD haha but that is the only way I can think to describe how it feels. It’s like I’m the typist, I’m the vessel. Oh, that’s so dramatic too… but it is apt.

I want to share it. I want to write it out here, sort of. But it is to be birthed later. For now it is in a stage of creation. Like cells dividing and multiplying in the early stages of creating… It is a mystery that takes on it’s own direction. It’s own mission. It is on a role and I’m just ‘watching’. Holy crap. Man. Whoa.

This entry barely makes sense, I know. But… this is how it goes, apparently!

I suppose all I can do is have faith and trust in the power of what Source is yet to unfold.

(I realised something today. You are not a fraction of Source. You are A FRACTAL. You are the whole individuated into what appears as an extension but is truly expansion. It is horizontal, not vertical. It is duplication, not division. It is fractal in nature, all the way across.)

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Fuck it.

Fuck it.

Fuck ever doing anything that is not in alignment with my highest good.
Fuck ever being anything that is not in alignment with who I truly am.
Fuck ever saying anything that is not in alignment with my highest truth.
Fuck ever being anything or anyone other than my soul.

All that matters is the spark of life in you and that it shines as brightly as it possibly can.

When you be or say or do anything that is not of your soul, your light dulls. All that fucking matters in this life is letting your unique, individual spark of life shine as brightly as it can, as brightly as it should. It’s natural state is to be permanently bright and luminary. It is dulled when we walk in shadows of resistance to who we really are.

So BE WHO YOU ARE in EVERY waking moment.

If you feel like shit, don’t force yourself to go to work because of societal pressure or fear about money. Yes, these are very very real concerns that are of course terrifying but there will come a point when you would rather your light shine brightly homeless than be dulled, dressed in a suit and tie. This point, when it comes, is unique to all. But there can always be the hope that we will align with this way of being without coming to a dramatic point in our life but rather, hopefully one day, it will simply be our way.

If you want to stay in bed all day, stay in bed all day. There is a reason you feel like this is what you need to do at this time. If you stay with this, it will eventually flow into something else, then that will flow into something else, then that will flow into something else and so on and so on, with the magnetic pull always flowing towards what is best for you at this time, what will bring you into alignment with the true brightness of your light.

How you feel matters, in every waking second your emotions and feelings are your exact instruction for what will bring you closest to your true light, the fastest. If you have to, treat your emotions like they are the teacher and you are the student. Listen to them and head towards the next thing that feels one step better than before, as they so often guide us to, and you will learn that they can be trusted to draw you to what you had been seeking all along, and eventually, hopefully, you will learn that you are them, the teacher, and they are the student, you are each one another, you are one and the same.

Don’t you see? Everything in this life is an illusion. It is an idealised perfection by someone else’s mind that you are now trying to become. The truth is only in you and you write it in every single moment of your existence, every breath you take, you are making the decision to either commit to or deny the illusion. Let yourself be free and think of what is best for you. If the illusion brings you comfort and joy then by all means experience it’s depths to the nth degree, the furthest reaches that you can. Exhaust the perspective and experience of being in, behind, below, beneath and within the veil but when it is time to leave, do not run, do not stay in a place you have written away with your most recent breath. You are done with that, you are done with the beauty and the pain that it held for you to learn and grow within. You are now beyond that and you are freer than ever before. You are not shackled, you are not in chains, you are just feared. You are feared by you because of the magnificence you know that you can truly be. It will shock and enthral you and you will lose every sentiment of the illusion that you held inside of you to be true. To relieve yourself of the burden of the veil is not one that is done easily most often, because you are not even aware that it is a burden until you step away from it and say, ‘ah, I feel so much lighter. I shine so much brighter. Could this have all been a dream?’ You will feel newness for the first time and fresh and as a child once more. It is terrifying to be a child, to be in that state of innocence and faith in a world that has taught you that it is safest to be the exact opposite. But in reality it is not to be feared, this child like state, for it is a state of strength and of great earned and learned wisdom over years and years. You cannot notice who you have always been if you did not first experience who you never truly were (the illusion). Take heed and know that now that you are free no one can stop you from being this great, effervescent, luminary, unstoppable, unbreakable, untouchable LIGHT of pure beauty and joy and most of all, FREEDOM.

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Messages from Archangel Azrael and The One

One of my cats, Uriel died on Sunday.

I asked Archangel Azrael (the angel of death) to be with me and help me understand.
I keep seeing myself and my other cats wrapped in giant angel wings. In an almost tangible kind of way. I am grateful.
Azrael started speaking to me a little while ago. I wrote down what he was saying.

To preface this message so it makes a bit more sense –
I had been thinking about Uriel’s role in my life. When she first came to me I sensed she was going to help me with the energies of forgiveness. This was just an intuition I received. It also aligns with the frequency of her name which is that of the Archangel Uriel who amongst other things, works with energies of forgiveness. (This was not the reason I called her Uriel, that intuition about forgiveness came after I had named her. I named her Uriel because I had a dream that her name was to be ‘Angel’ yet it did not feel 100% right so I looked up the angel names and as my eyes settled on, ‘Uriel’ I knew it to be hers). I had some forgiving to do for certain people in my life.

Leading up to the day Uriel left I had been thinking about forgiveness. I had realised one of the reasons I was still struggling to move on from a previous break up was because I had not offered forgiveness. The day before she died I was watching a YouTube video from a spiritual teacher who was talking about the importance of forgiveness… forgiveness of the self. I pondered the idea that I had not yet approached idea of forgiveness being needed for me, from me. I wrote the word ‘forgiveness’ down in a note on the computer.

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Uriel and I

Uriel also really knew how to hold space for me not only when I was in emotional distress but in actuality, all the time. She somehow energetically always provided me with what I can only describe as an intangible ‘love bubble’. She loved. She would put her paw on my heart when I was sad and also pour loving energy all through my being.
I also sensed her to be ‘transient’. I cannot explain that really. I didn’t know what it meant. I just used to think, ‘oh, she’s a transient one’, like an intuitive thought. I didn’t know what it meant. I do now. In the moments of shock and trauma and absolute searing pain I experienced in the first hour that she had passed I still received these words, ‘transient’. As I said, I get it now.

Azrael:

“You did not go through this experience to suffer. You went through this experience to make change. A being does not leave because it is time. A being leaves because it is a new time. And so it is. For you, too.

What you must expect of yourself is not what others do but what you do, what you feel, what ever you matter to you is how you will process this experience.

The transient effect of death, the nature of it’s form of exit is a harsh one for some to experience. As a child of the crystal age you are one who experiences the depths of loss frequently. Everyday we give birth to loss. Everyday there is change to be had and time to be worn on, time to move on. We are not lost when death comes to call but rather awakened to what we were asleep within.

Our times are ever changing in this current age, dear child, and so too the animals seek to move from what is being destroyed in terms of change (the changing of the dimensions at this time) and they move into the higher dimensions to facilitate the perfect destruction to give birth to creation, that must take place in aid of this coming and yet almost already come to be shift.

Your cat, Uriel was not one for long to this world for she had many other jobs to take care of. As an angel of the light she could not be incarnate in her body long. It was just enough for you to facilitate this birthing of forgiveness and understanding of the heart that you had long held lost. She came with you in this journey. Her heart is always within yours as yours is within mine and we are all together one under the light of the all.

She was a transient being as you have sensed, yes. She was an awakening one. She was one to awaken within you what was needed at this time and then she made her departure.

It is not wrong for you to feel this way nor is it wrong for her to have left in this way or left at all. She came to you for special reason and now it is known by you and for you. The time has come for the archangels to draw nearer to you in your time of awakening to the birth of the new – the loss of the old. Change disrupts and change changes us but it is always for the better or it would never have come to be.

The Earth spins on her axis for yet another day, as do you at this time. She is watching over you, this little one, and she came to tell you that she is and that she is with the I Am, the I Am in you. You will miss her but her journey has not gone far. She is awake in you as she was the one to awaken you. She is very troublesome and cheeky in this way.

She says she came to be with you in your time of crisis of spiritual and emotional crisis and transitory time. There is not an empty space in your heart for her as you envision because she is in your heart as you have envisioned. All change comes to a close but it does not stop. It simply changes.”

– Archangel Azrael

Previous to this message I received a brief message from The One. I actually had a job interview to go to today. I did not know if I could bring myself to go, if I should go. I feel incredibly sad, frequently break out in tears at random moments and I also feel physically unwell – very tired, headache, sore throat (I had a cold coming on the life of which I am sure has been extended because of my sadness). When the time came that I should start getting ready I was still unsure. I asked for a sign or message from my guides. I got a comment on a post on Facebook that said ‘do what is best for you now, in this moment’. I knew that to be my sign. Moments later I briefly second guessed this. That was when I received this message very clearly:

“All that we would ask is that you consider what is best at the present moment. Your mind is weary, your body is tired, your heart heavy. You are heart heavy. This is one of the most painful emotions or ways of being that a human being can experience. To put pressure on that system of infrastructure to go away is the same as putting pressure on a tentative pipeline. The pipes can burst, the water can break. Toxicity levels are high at this time and freedom is not found in worrying about the future. All that you have is the now (as we have stated previously). Through this experience you will learn the vitality of the now, and the virtue of the now and of being in and of the now. Rest, dear one, now for that is what it is time for, now.”

– The One

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The Painful Illusion (Re: Uriel)

The Painful Illusion (The Enemy of Death)
Re: Uriel

Stealing away our heart beat
It comes in the middle of the night
Taints the first day of the week
And robs you of their sight
Death has been personified
In this dark fall
Autumn bled her mystery
And now I am at her call

Winter marches on
Stole my breath in it’s wake
I cannot belong
On a planet with pain so great

I know I could go back
To where I first began
But I am sure the glass is sharp there too

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A Channeled Message from The One about Change and Time

Lately I have been feeling weird, blank and low vibrational. I tend to mentally beat myself up when I get like this. I feel like it’s not okay for me as a spiritual teacher or intuitive being to fall into low vibrations. I often feel as though I will be thought as less than or that my material will be devalued so I tend to just get mad at myself when I feel negatively focused.
But. That is part of what is changing at the moment.
The new wave of spiritual teachers or beings’ way is to be authentic. Authentic in sadness, in joy, in strength, in weakness, in loss, in faith, in lost and in found.

So below is a message about that^ from the group consciousness I channel known as The One… It is also about the changing of ‘time’. In the last little while my feeling of time and linear time has been disintegrating… subtly, but it’s there. It has felt strange and weird and chaotic to me… So this message holds some answers about that too.

So, this is a message that began as more of a personal message to me from The One, but it applies to all of us and goes on to share important information:

“WE are here with you now. It is okay to be a dreamer, to be a sun.

Sometimes the saddest stories are the ones we write ourselves.

WE are with you in your darkest times.

It is okay to not always see the light. It is okay to not always smile. There is yellow in the sun but not everyone sees the same colours. To some, all looks gray. All appears dreary and rainy with no sun at all. It is okay to be in the shadow of loss, or loss and love, and chaos and dichotomy. It is okay. Go where your feelings take you and you will find the rainbow at the end of it all. But first you must allow and receive, not take away from yourself through anger at yourself for feeling lower vibrations or what you deem as lower of vibration.

You are a child of the god or universal energy. You are a god of universal energy, the universe itself, you experience all arrays of all emotions including sadness and sunlessness and sunshine and loss and scouring the echoes of the past for reasons that no longer exist…? This happens too, but we deem it as okay. You should deem it as okay. It is what makes you, you (the learning from it).
Humans are so very caught up in what is and what is not, how things should be versus how they are not but listen when we tell you: it is time for change and growth and with that we must do away with all judgements and all precursors or pre-knowings of situations, assumptions, yes… Assumptions about what you think must be done in certain terms and situations based on the past. The time for change is now and with the changing of time comes allowing of the new. Allow the unsurety. Allow the hierarchy to fall. Your rules no longer apply in the now, in the newness of the now, the real NOW.

There is so much time and you always think you have so little but there is always time because time is a duality purposed construct that is FALLING AWAY at this time. It is falling and it is only seemingly chaotically. It is not actually because the chaos is in non-linearity itself.

You were not actually a linear creature before you came here. You were sewn into the earth to follow progress with the time and the turn of the sun’s shades and the earth’s spin, the dress of the illusion of time (as we have stated before), but now, you as a flower (this flower of time), that time is done. The time is ripe to fall from the tree and grow again. You sought so much for this. You sought so much and sought and sought. It is time to stop seeking and to turn away from all that you knew and begin to CREATE NEW. The rules are out the window. The chaos is gone; you just enhance it with your addiction to the rules themselves. Let no one stand in your way in the doorway of your newness. You are a whole, complete creator. You are the Earth as she turns and the soul in the stars as well. You are the ALL. And so it is.”

– The One

Featured Image: Devotion by Nik Helbig

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Beauty, Blank, Begin.

I realised I downplay my beauty for fear of being seen.

Why (do I fear)? (What do I fear?)

Not sure.

Lately I have felt blank.

I realised it is a newness of being. I think my concept of time is falling away. My world has literally moved in slow motion a couple of times in the last few days. I saw the movement of reality slow. It feels stagnant but yet it is movement. It is the perfect time to create. To begin. That is what the now is. It is a single everlasting moment.

I dance in this moment of blankness, of beauty and of beginning for reasons yet unknown to me.

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The Psychic Girl: On Not Belonging

I realised I have been slightly avoiding my journey… or rather, it’s destination.

Last night I went to a party and I had been talking with some people there about what I do as a spiritual intuitive. The word ‘psychic’ was thrown in there. Another girl who was not quite part of the conversation overheard and said, “Wait, you’re a psychic?!” I said, “Basically” she responded, “Oh! Does that mean you know everything about me?!!?!” I said, “yesss totallyyy… haha no, not at all.”

Last night I went to a party and I felt like I did not belong and then I realised that I do.
Today I went to lunch with my family and I felt like I did not belong and then I realised that I do.

If I had not been born into the family I was born into and received the negative imprint of ‘not belonging’ I would not have become who I am today and especially not who I am in this moment.

Last night and today I had a sudden surrender to the part of me that feels like I do not belong. Surrender as in, I allowed myself to feel not belonging. I stopped wanting to change it.

There is this idea that we MUST belong and if we do not belong then we are something bad or something negative and THAT is the pain of not belonging, not the not belonging itself.
I have found today that one can be perfectly peaceful in not belonging. I do not belong. Once I said those words to myself, I sighed and said it again, I do not belong. And then, THEN all these realisations came to me. I settled into not belonging and just as I did that I realised that me feeling that I do not belong is just another part of the reason that I DO belong.

I started to see myself as an essential piece of the puzzle that is my family.
I started to see myself as a beneficial contribution to the group of people that surrounded me at that party (this scenario – me in a group of people – is the perfect metaphor for my whole general feeling of not belonging, it is not an attribution to those people personally).

Because I am so sensitive and empathic I have been able to experience the majority of emotions that are on the human emotional spectrum. This makes me an excellent supporter for others in all areas of love (Note: I meant to only write ‘in all areas of life’ but when I went to write ‘life’ I ‘accidentally’, automatically typed ‘love’ instead. Oh, what a truth it is).
I am a unique person in most areas of society. I am a conscious creator. I am a helper and I help others to awaken, to become conscious of their own creativity.

If I felt that I did belong I would not have settled so deeply inside myself thereby discovering who I truly am quite quickly.
If I felt that I did belong I would not have fallen into depression/bipolar aka my ‘awakening’.
If I felt that I did belong I would not be able to completely empathise with others who feel that they do not belong.
If I felt that I did belong I would probably not be as connected to animals as I am.

Part of the problem has been that I have actually not been embracing this aspect of me, this aspect that I have deemed as not belonging and therefore wrong, an error, a mistake when really all of that wording and that wrongness can be replaced with unique.

When that girl said, ‘what WHO’S the PSYCHIC?!!’ and everyone looked at me and her reaction of, ‘oh no! you can know anything about me?!’ I felt a very intense wave of I-do-not-belong. I felt that I DEFINITELY DO NOT BELONG. I had already been feeling this way, as I do in general as I said but also as I do when it comes to large social gatherings, but in that moment I felt like I had just seen the evidence of this truth that I do not belong.
A truth that I had declared as truth in my mind a long time ago.
Later on I still felt not belonging, I felt I wanted to go home. But I stayed. I said to myself, “Maybe I can do this, maybe I will be alright.” And I stayed and I found that I looked around the room and people were laughing with me and talking to me of their own volition and it completely changed my view.

Nothing is ever definitively true except in your mind and your mind is malleable.

Today at family lunch I looked at my brother and his wife, my sister and her husband and my mum and dad and I considered each of them in my mind individually. As I glanced I started seeing or hearing or sensing or just knowing the ways in which I have helped them or could help them in their lives just by me being a part of this family.

My mum needs me to be someone who understands her and her emotional sensitivity.
My dad needs me to hold space for him as he unknowingly grieves and fears on the inside.
My brother needs me to teach him how to be unique in the world and have it be okay.
My sister needs me to be an emotional bridge for her when she falls.
My sister in law needs me to increase her trust in her ability to love unconditionally.
My brother in law needs me to show him that kindness is out there and that self love is of value.
I need each of them to be inspired to learn how to love myself unconditionally and how to find a home and make sense of a world that does not always make sense to me and that I do not always make sense to.

The problem has been that I have deemed all of my issues as wrong. AS issues. I have deemed all of the situations, circumstances or experiences in my life that cause me pain as WRONG and so I have suffered tremendously.

It is okay that I do not belong. It is okay that I feel that I do not belong.
It is okay that I feel I was born in the ‘wrong’ family.
It is okay that I feel others think I am ‘just wrong’.
(For both of the above: ‘wrong’ = mistake. I feel I am a mistake in these situations. I feel I am not as good as them. I feel there was some error in my creation and placement within this creation).

However. It is not possible for me to not belong because I am here. I belong in not belonging. It is my lesson. My home. My precious journey.

You belong everywhere. You belong in every moment that passes you by.

you are a child of the universe

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Raw, 2015, Rebirth

I feel very raw. I feel like I have been stripped down to the foundations of my life as I know it. I can barely explain it aside from sharing the visual I keep seeing that exemplifies my feelings:

I see my body, standing upright. It has been excavated like an archaeological dig site. There is not much left but the foundations of what was once a golden temple. I see my body as this shell, filled with dirt and vague structural pieces, evidence of what used to be. I feel neutral towards it. I only somewhat recognise it as my own. It sounds awful, because it is mine and I should be worried about it, but I’m not. I am very slightly curious towards it. I wonder what used to be. I don’t really remember.

This is 2015. This is where we are right now. We are standing in the shell of what used to be, or that emptiness is headed your way. It’s alright. Everything old is being removed to make way for the new. The new is beautiful, green and lush. It just takes it’s time. The sun sets over it beautifully. I see it. Purple and pink skies with bold orange and yellows arching together, blending softly to create something we’ve never seen before.

Each day we are reborn a little more.

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Featured Image ‘Rose’s Portrait’ by Lyndsey Vu