I feel like everything is going crazy.
– It’s already February 21st. How the hell did that happen?
– 2 arguments in the same day with the people closest to me recently. Only 1 of which is resolved.
– Psychic abilities advancing (can hear my guide more, see much more clairvoyantly – see this post if interested in reading more).
– Friends fading in and out of my reality. Painful first then I release, then they’re back, then they’re gone. Then they’re back.
– Final shedding of past relationships pain – to a degree. I still carry the tears and scars I am unable to face yet. But there is definitely some kind of detachment also happening.
– One of my kitties got sick. He’s fine. But that’s never happened before.
– I feel like I am connecting way more strongly to my higher self. This has led to many life improvements due to increased inspiration and moments of motivation. E.g. Random inspiration to start playing guitar again, wearing more floaty, pretty clothes (I know that sounds superficial but it truly isn’t – clothing can represent who you are inside), improving my diet (buying more organic food, reducing wheat/gluten intake, reducing the amount of sugar I eat – with hopes to eventually have none in my diet – definitely have a sugar addiction going on but this is the first time I have felt very strong, motivated urge to try to kick it), cleaning and updating my house a bit more, reduced chemical medication, improved mentality and increased motivation towards my business goals. I’m being inspired to help others more even beyond my own business. Just…in general. Openness and willingness to connect and try to help others heal themselves.
– I am in some kind of weird never-been-like-this-before stage of fearlessness – no, rather, I am being courageous: I am terrified of many things but I am doing them anyway. My guides have always told me that I have ‘fortitude’. I feel I am really conscious of how that is at the moment, and that the level has increased.
– Letting myself feel my feelings more and more.
– Trying to understand and utilise the benefits of being very sensitive.
The thing that makes it all seem intense and crazy is the fact that it’s all been very close together.
Ultimately, I think my overall vibration/frequency is increasing at a rapid rate. Things are being released painfully, beautifully and new things are being born perfectly.
Exciting things are on their way.
(Or at least, it is what I am trying to believe. I choose my beliefs. I am.)
I wrote this status thing the other day and I think it sums up what I’m trying to express:
“Life is a fucking mess. Like, that’s actually what it is. Life is this unexplainable, messy, chaotic, beautiful, insane, ever changing nonsense experience. So much can happen in a small amount of time. Even when it looks as though nothing has changed, the tables and chairs have all been thrown around the room by unseen, volatile forces and you missed it because you blinked, but then you’re in it. Life is a fucking wonderful, painful, shining mess.”
Meanwhile, my guide, Sahasrara, says to me (with images of knots in a rope joining to more of the same):
“Everything ties together perfectly. Everything will tie together perfectly. Everything will be alright.”
“Even the things that look like knots in your life are just the bridges that bind together, to create perfect life.”