“My cat, Panda, walks around meowing at seemingly nothing a lot. He also runs around crazily at random moments for no apparent reason. This behaviour has sometimes driven me insane…
As an animal communicator, I can tell you there is always…” [read more]
One of my cats, Uriel died on Sunday.
I asked Archangel Azrael (the angel of death) to be with me and help me understand.
I keep seeing myself and my other cats wrapped in giant angel wings. In an almost tangible kind of way. I am grateful.
Azrael started speaking to me a little while ago. I wrote down what he was saying.
To preface this message so it makes a bit more sense –
I had been thinking about Uriel’s role in my life. When she first came to me I sensed she was going to help me with the energies of forgiveness. This was just an intuition I received. It also aligns with the frequency of her name which is that of the Archangel Uriel who amongst other things, works with energies of forgiveness. (This was not the reason I called her Uriel, that intuition about forgiveness came after I had named her. I named her Uriel because I had a dream that her name was to be ‘Angel’ yet it did not feel 100% right so I looked up the angel names and as my eyes settled on, ‘Uriel’ I knew it to be hers). I had some forgiving to do for certain people in my life.
Leading up to the day Uriel left I had been thinking about forgiveness. I had realised one of the reasons I was still struggling to move on from a previous break up was because I had not offered forgiveness. The day before she died I was watching a YouTube video from a spiritual teacher who was talking about the importance of forgiveness… forgiveness of the self. I pondered the idea that I had not yet approached idea of forgiveness being needed for me, from me. I wrote the word ‘forgiveness’ down in a note on the computer.
Uriel also really knew how to hold space for me not only when I was in emotional distress but in actuality, all the time. She somehow energetically always provided me with what I can only describe as an intangible ‘love bubble’. She loved. She would put her paw on my heart when I was sad and also pour loving energy all through my being.
I also sensed her to be ‘transient’. I cannot explain that really. I didn’t know what it meant. I just used to think, ‘oh, she’s a transient one’, like an intuitive thought. I didn’t know what it meant. I do now. In the moments of shock and trauma and absolute searing pain I experienced in the first hour that she had passed I still received these words, ‘transient’. As I said, I get it now.
“You did not go through this experience to suffer. You went through this experience to make change. A being does not leave because it is time. A being leaves because it is a new time. And so it is. For you, too.
What you must expect of yourself is not what others do but what you do, what you feel, what ever you matter to you is how you will process this experience.
The transient effect of death, the nature of it’s form of exit is a harsh one for some to experience. As a child of the crystal age you are one who experiences the depths of loss frequently. Everyday we give birth to loss. Everyday there is change to be had and time to be worn on, time to move on. We are not lost when death comes to call but rather awakened to what we were asleep within.
Our times are ever changing in this current age, dear child, and so too the animals seek to move from what is being destroyed in terms of change (the changing of the dimensions at this time) and they move into the higher dimensions to facilitate the perfect destruction to give birth to creation, that must take place in aid of this coming and yet almost already come to be shift.
Your cat, Uriel was not one for long to this world for she had many other jobs to take care of. As an angel of the light she could not be incarnate in her body long. It was just enough for you to facilitate this birthing of forgiveness and understanding of the heart that you had long held lost. She came with you in this journey. Her heart is always within yours as yours is within mine and we are all together one under the light of the all.
She was a transient being as you have sensed, yes. She was an awakening one. She was one to awaken within you what was needed at this time and then she made her departure.
It is not wrong for you to feel this way nor is it wrong for her to have left in this way or left at all. She came to you for special reason and now it is known by you and for you. The time has come for the archangels to draw nearer to you in your time of awakening to the birth of the new – the loss of the old. Change disrupts and change changes us but it is always for the better or it would never have come to be.
The Earth spins on her axis for yet another day, as do you at this time. She is watching over you, this little one, and she came to tell you that she is and that she is with the I Am, the I Am in you. You will miss her but her journey has not gone far. She is awake in you as she was the one to awaken you. She is very troublesome and cheeky in this way.
She says she came to be with you in your time of crisis of spiritual and emotional crisis and transitory time. There is not an empty space in your heart for her as you envision because she is in your heart as you have envisioned. All change comes to a close but it does not stop. It simply changes.”
– Archangel Azrael
Previous to this message I received a brief message from The One. I actually had a job interview to go to today. I did not know if I could bring myself to go, if I should go. I feel incredibly sad, frequently break out in tears at random moments and I also feel physically unwell – very tired, headache, sore throat (I had a cold coming on the life of which I am sure has been extended because of my sadness). When the time came that I should start getting ready I was still unsure. I asked for a sign or message from my guides. I got a comment on a post on Facebook that said ‘do what is best for you now, in this moment’. I knew that to be my sign. Moments later I briefly second guessed this. That was when I received this message very clearly:
“All that we would ask is that you consider what is best at the present moment. Your mind is weary, your body is tired, your heart heavy. You are heart heavy. This is one of the most painful emotions or ways of being that a human being can experience. To put pressure on that system of infrastructure to go away is the same as putting pressure on a tentative pipeline. The pipes can burst, the water can break. Toxicity levels are high at this time and freedom is not found in worrying about the future. All that you have is the now (as we have stated previously). Through this experience you will learn the vitality of the now, and the virtue of the now and of being in and of the now. Rest, dear one, now for that is what it is time for, now.”
– The One
The Painful Illusion (The Enemy of Death)
Stealing away our heart beat
It comes in the middle of the night
Taints the first day of the week
And robs you of their sight
Death has been personified
In this dark fall
Autumn bled her mystery
And now I am at her call
Winter marches on
Stole my breath in it’s wake
I cannot belong
On a planet with pain so great
I know I could go back
To where I first began
But I am sure the glass is sharp there too
I miss my kitties.
I love coming home to Panda’s smile and sleepy eyes.
P.S. I think it’s good I didn’t get a Christmas tree for my apartment:
Did you know that:
Animal Communication can be used to…
- Let your animal know about important changes or events such as if you are going on holiday, having a new baby, adopting another pet, moving, taking them to the vet for a procedure, getting a new house mate or partner Etc.
- Manage any inappropriate behaviour or on going behavioural issues.
- Help your cat understand why the Christmas tree is not a giant, amazing scratching tree just for them
- Manage and help your animal to recover from an emotional or physical trauma.
- Help introduce yourself to your newly adopted pet – find out who they are inside, learn about their past, their likes and dislikes, their interests, their desires Etc.
- Explain to your dog that, contrary to popular belief, the mail man is not all dogs’ greatest foe
- Strengthen your bond with your current pet by simply sharing with one another through conversation E.g. ask your pet if they want something to be different regarding their food, bedding or environment Etc, ask them how they’re feeling physically or emotionally, say to or ask them anything at all.
- Help multi pet households with any commonly related issues e.g. sharing of space or toys, fighting, possessiveness, territorial behaviour Etc.
- Help your pet understand why you keep taking photos of them while they’re sleeping in a ‘hilarious’ or ‘really cute’ position’. Or why you keep putting them in ‘little outfits’ ‘because they look so adorable’.
- Tell your pet you don’t need their company every time you take a shower
- A lot, lot more!
If you’re not sure what the heck I’m talking about or would like to order an animal communication session with me, head to http://rebeccaelizabethanne.com/animal-communication (By the way there is a super awesome YAYIT’STHE HOLIDAYS SPECIAL on right now, hooray!)
Just a note to say:
“It is my greatest intention to teach, learn, commune and heal.”
I got all 3 ID tags done for my cats, to put on their collars, so that they can safely go outside on their own. We had a big talk about it yesterday. I explained all the rules and they all said that they understand. I told Rose I was scared that she was going to run away because she hasn’t been getting on with the newest cat, Uriel. As you will see from what I’ve written below, those fears are now quelled.
I took Rose out the back and the front today (off lead, but with me there watching). She went right into the neighbours yard and then came right back. She understands that’s not our house but felt she had to investigate. She did a loop around the yard then came right back. Then she went under the house…it scared me. But when I called, she came back. She is really listening to me and understands all my fears and reasons as to why I haven’t let them outside, and why it’s hard for me now. She barely went any where and came (eventually) every time I called her. She would also just come up to me and weave between my legs a lot without being called. She is purposefully behaving like that to show me that she will not run away – she knows that was a big fear of mine. I love her so much for the care and understanding she has shown.
Panda and Uriel have been out the back (off lead, under supervision), but not for very long. I can only worry about one of them at a time, so we are taking turns. Right now it’s Rose’s turn to get used to the outside area. Soon it will be Panda’s, then Uriel’s.
Also, when I was outside with Rose, I came across a single white feather. A while ago I asked for a sign from my angels, that they would bring a white feather into my path once when I was in a state of need and loneliness. and they did it. It was so awesome. Seeing that again today was so comforting, and I didn’t even ask for it. Perhaps it will be our sign for the next little while (or forever?). I was so appreciative.
On the way to the pet store (to get the ID tags), I drove the wrong way and I ended up finding that my suburb has AN OCEAN POOL ONLY LIKE 3 STREETS AWAY. IT’S SO AWESOME! I am so glad. I am glad I drove the ‘wrong’ way.
Whilst I was at the pet store I had a lot of time to wait because the engraving machine (for the ID tags) was playing up. This was totally fine because during my wait I met the shop cat called Mickey. I chatted to her and then ended up giving her a whole energy healing session! She fell asleep as I sent healing energy to her. I sensed there was something going on with her liver so I left an orb of on going, healing energy in that area of her body. This was again a scenario that went ‘wrong’ but worked out very much for the better!
My phone screen has died. I can see that the phone still works but the screen is black. This is a scenario where something has gone wrong and has not yet shown itself to be ‘for a greater reason’ like the other scenarios that occurred today…but I have faith. There will be some good reason for this too.
Right now I am beginning my self education on how to naturally manage bipolar disorder via internet research/youtube etc. I also have had many intuitions about it of my own which I will type out sometime soon. Intuitions regarding the cause of bipolar, anyway. I still need to meditate and continue research on the management side of it as aforementioned.
I have been slowly tapering off of one of the medications I am on for the bipolar (Cymbalta). I was on two a day, then one a day, then one every second day and now, as of tomorrow, it will be zero a day. I am excited about it.
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs; for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be critical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be careful. Strive to be happy.
© Max Ehrmann 1927
I have been crying this morning and my cat, Uriel, is ‘holding space for me’. I just know it. I am crying about my cat, Joe, that died almost ten years ago. He was a significant being in my life and I am still processing his death. Still. I miss him. There is more to our story.
But anyway, right now I am grieving and and Uriel is holding the space for it, even when it’s about another cat, and for that I love her.
I never really got what ‘holding space’ for someone meant until now. It is just like she is radiating this energetic bubble of love all over me, that supports only and does not try to heal – the healing IS the support being provided because active healing cannot happen before release…
It is much like when she touched my heart to heal it (see Fear of Failure/Paws On Hearts) without the touch part.
I love what I am learning about her role in my life. She really is an angel.
The other day I was feeling upset because I had talked to Rose (one of my cats) and she told me she was upset that we had ‘stopped having sacred time’. She was talking about how I used to meditate and communicate with the animals more than I currently do. The main reason I stopped is because I doubted my abilities. And it upset her.
I have a massive ‘fear of failure’ complex relative to pretty much everything in my life. It leads me to the irrational response or reflex of ‘okay, if I don’t try I can’t fail, so I won’t’. This is not conscious at the time but it is something realised upon reflection, and it is very common from what I can tell.
Rose blamed the new(ish) cat Uriel for seemingly being the reason I stopped having that ‘sacred time’ with her and Panda (my other cat). I explained to Rose that it was just coincidental timing and that it was my fear, so it was my fault, not Uriel’s. After I explained this all to Rose I was feeling really upset about it. Uriel was sitting (basically) on me as I started crying. She reached up and put her paw on my heart and I knew it was to heal it.
Rose was upset in general that we got another cat. She said it’s not what she wanted. So I’ve still been feeling really bad about it. But conflicted because I love Uriel and she’s not going anywhere..
Last night I explained to Rose about how I just got this feeling that we had to get another kitty, and that when I saw Uriel it was like, ‘omg. this kitty belongs with me. She belongs with our family. I just know it.’ I explained to Rose that it was the same feeling I had when I first saw her, and when I first met Panda too. I said it was really hard because I knew Rose would not like it that much…yet I still had this feeling. Rose started headbutting me (aka lovingly rubbing her face against mine) and saying she understands.
I also explained to her again that I stopped talking to them because of my own fear…fear of being wrong when I speak to them. I explained to her that it is hard for me to distinguish between me making things up in my head and me actually hearing them in my head. I told her that people aren’t like animals, we don’t talk in our minds normally, and it’s a learning process. She headbutted me again.
Later on that same night I saw Rose sitting quite close to Uriel. They both had their eyes half closed and I ‘felt’ that they were having a conversation. I swear I heard Rose saying sorry. There was a peaceful communion of some sort at least. I’m so glad.
It’s stuff like this, like Rose rubbing my face, and Uriel putting her paw on my heart, and the budgie at my family home starting to squawk like crazy to say, ‘it’s okay! it’s okay! you’re here now. it’s okay!’ when I started apologising over and over for his illness and that we hadn’t looked after him better…It’s stuff like this that makes me remember and realise that the animals are just so unconditionally loving and beautiful and despite my fears, I should keep trying. I should just keep trying because they are here for me.
And it’s not a special thing you know. Any one who puts the effort into knowing animals will get the same response from them and come to the same realisations…they are beings of wholeness, consciousness, love and feelings, just like us. They want to connect and they unconditionally love to the best of their ability. Explaining things to them really really helps, even if you don’t fully believe it, one should try. The worst that happens is that it works.
Rose and I are getting a bamboo palm, house plant tomorrow. We’re going to meditate and send love to it together and that will be our sacred time. It was her suggestion and I think it’s great.
I just spoke to two cats for a couple of people today and it went well and it was all good. I had the visions, I heard the words… I just need to remember these moments. Gotta remember: I can do it.