Pre-Destiny vs. Free Will (Teal Swan Remix)

etch-a-sketch art

The Etch-A-Sketch

It’s like I can see the whole universe and the maps of consciousness and I can see how and why almost everything happens the way it does and it’s this huge etch-a-sketch blueprint or map in my head that appears and reappears in an instant and erases and draws itself again and again and it’s ever-changing and complicated but somehow it still makes so much fucking sense and I wish I could just slam this image into others’ minds sometimes so they would just know


Split Consciousness Out of Body Experience

The other night as I was just starting to fall asleep, I saw stars. Not imaginary, dream-like stars, and not ‘seeing stars because you got whacked in the head’, kind of stars, but REAL STARS.

It was like I was literally outside (but hovering up closer to the sky by the looks of it), it was like I was seeing it all with my physical eyes, my normal open-eyed vision. It was epic and weird and crazy.

As I realised and marvelled at it, it sort of disappeared and then I tried to ‘bring it back’ and only managed to gather an imagined image of stars. They just looked like pictures when you day dream, you know…but THEN as I was drifting off to sleep again, it happened again!

It was this beautiful galaxy milky way kind of epic view, like those photos taken in a remote desert somewhere that reveal the whole milky way on clear nights…
But it was like my eyeballs were right there beneath that dark but ever so bright sky…

stars milky way

It was very very similar to this, but darker. Imagine lying on the ground, looking up at this. Except there is no ground, you’re floating in space. Yea. That was it. Just looking at this throws me back into the memory and makes me feel a bit dizzy!

And then, it happened again, but this time it was a single star and it was really fucking bright and really fucking beautiful. Again, it was this weird definitely-different-to-normal-mind-imagery. It was like I was standing (floating?) in front of it using my physical eyeballs to see this miraculous star. It was a little bit too bright as it flickered a couple of times, so I had to ‘blink’ (even though my eyes were shut digitized sky survey siriusthis whole time? This is so hard to describe, what the hell), and in that tiny moment of ‘blinking’ I was worried that this perfect little star that had come to visit me/I went to visit would disappear and I would never experience it’s presence/beauty ever again and it was such a tragic sorrow to think of that…but, after this split second blink and emotional chorus of concern, the star was still there, and it flashed (or rather, flickered, but it was so bright, flickering sounds too soft a word) at me again as if to say, “I’m not going anywhere”, “we are together”.

I keep saying, ‘what the hell etc.’ buuuut I am guessing that this was the result of remaining partially conscious as my normal, physical, third dimensional consciousness was drifting up and away, back to the higher dimensions and to source, (as all of our minds/souls do every night when we sleep).

I have never been out of body but have been thinking about it more and more. I know that I could do it, I am just scared that I will fail and get frustrated (so not trying means I don’t have to feel those feelings I assume will occur), and scared that I will accidentally manifest scary things* when in these other dimensions.

I know that I am on my way to getting out of body though as lately I have found that almost every time I meditate, regardless of what the meditation is about (if it’s a guided one) or my intention with it, I start to get those feelings that come with an increased vibratory rate, that culminate into one leaving one’s body I.e. feeling far away mentally, body starts to go numb and lose sensation, but simultaneously tingling and vibrating sensations begin to arise…All of these are the body/mind/soul preparing to exit the physical realm (though people never leave enough to lose automated and necessary-for-survival functioning like keeping the heart beating and the lungs breathing etc).

Also, about a month ago now, I was meditating and said to my guides, “I would like to better understand the concept of oneness within this meditation, that is my intention in this moment”, and I had what is apparently a well known feeling when astral projection occurs – I felt myself ‘fall’ but, I ‘fell’ into myself…
I half knew what was happening and I got too excited and so I think I brought myself out of it – the mental relaxation required started to go. I did get it to happen again a couple of times though, but not enough to continue with it enough to leave this dimension…I think I got a bit scared as well because I wasn’t 100% sure or prepared. I got excited because I know now that my guides were going to take me out of body to show me an experience on another dimension that would illuminate and increasing my understanding of the concept of oneness. I hope to get this happening again sometime soon.

But, back to this star-event: I am going to say that it was, “A split consciousness out of body experience”. Because I WAS still in my body BUT I was simultaneously seeing what the other part of my consciousness was experiencing.

We are multi dimensional beings after all. Our consciousness is always, simultaneously, in a million different places doing lots of different things, we are just rarely conscious of it.

And in this moment, I was conscious and it was amazing.

meditation digital art

Please leave a comment if you know the artist of this beautiful piece!

*Note: As you move to the ‘higher’ dimensions, the time it takes to for thought to manifest something into your reality-experience is drastically increased, meaning if I start worrying that I might come across scary astral monsters I’ve read about here and there, I will be creating them with my mind and bam! they will be there in about no seconds. I should mention here that what I am saying is the truth – there are no such things as astral monsters unless you create them by virtue of your vibration – I say vibration because yes, you can have a conscious thought about them and then create it and it’s like. “oh okay that’s why that happened” but, you can also have vibrations that are made up of subconscious and hidden concerns or negative beliefs that you aren’t aware of.

So, the way to deal with all this is to make sure you are confident and are in a positive mind frame when you go about astral projection and such things, and know that if you can create them with your mind, you can get rid of them with your mind too. You can also call in your spirit guides who’s simple presence will provide a boost of confidence to you, by just knowing they are there. They may also actively help to make these entities disappear, only if that boost of confidence and increase in sense of security is not enough for you.

Teaching in My Dreams

Last night I had a ‘dream’ that I was teaching people.

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I’m somewhere out there, as always.

I know it was not a dream at all. It was me, out of body in the higher dimensions, teaching others about energy and the nature of the universe. I wish I could recall what I said. This is about the 3rd time I have remembered doing this sort of light work at night… it is nice to know that my intentions are far reaching. Further than I can consciously contemplate, within this 3D mind of mine.

EDIT: I am now just remembering that before I went to sleep, I set the intention to remember my out of body activities. YES! Success!

On the Higher Self

The higher self and the universe are always directing you into situations, people, places and experiences that are for your highest good; that is to say, they offer you the greatest expansion, the best and quickest path at the time to your highest joy. Let the universe take control. Trust in it because it is you and trust in you because you are the mighty, awe inspiring universe itself.

Rebecca Town

Quote: Prof. Jerry Waxman

There is a fundamental reason why we look at the sky with wonder and longing—for the same reason that we stand, hour after hour, gazing at the distant swell of the open ocean. There is something like an ancient wisdom, encoded and tucked away in our DNA, which knows its point of origin as surely as a salmon knows its creek. Intellectually, we may not want to return there, but the genes know, and long for their origins—their home in the salty depths. But if the seas are our immediate source, the penultimate source is certainly the heavens… The spectacular truth is—and this is something that your DNA has known all along—the very atoms of your body—the iron, calcium, phosphorus, carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and on and on—were initially forged in long-dead stars. This is why, when you stand outside under a moonless, country sky, you feel some ineffable tugging at your innards. We are star stuff. Keep looking up.

Prof. Jerry Waxman from NYU

I have always known this. We stare in awe at the vastness and beauty of nature…because we are it.

Quote: Ram Dass “Souls Love”

Souls love. That’s what souls do. Egos don’t, but souls do. Become a soul, look around, and you’ll be amazed-all the beings around you are souls. Be one, see one. When many people have this heart connection, then we will know that we are all one, we human beings all over the planet. We will be one. One love. And don’t leave out the animals, and trees, and clouds, and galaxies-it’s all one. It’s one energy. It comes through in individual ways, but it’s one energy. You can call it energy, or you can call it love. I like to look at a tree and see that it’s love. Don’t you?

Ram Dass (via alihikaua)